ANOTHER SUNDAY MORNING

I certainly would welcome a feeling of excitement that it's Sunday morning and I could anticipate worship and the Word with other believers at church as I get myself ready. But the excitement is not there and I'm not even getting ready because I am not going. It seems the last few times I've gone I just sit there sort of detached, just worshipping by myself. I encounter no connection with anyone. I avoid people and just duck out of the church with a few waves hello, a smile, and hi how are you.

Don't get me wrong. I have a very strong relationship with the Lord and I care for people. I commune with my Lord continually and I am deep into the study of His Word. I know it's my state of mind. I'm in a funk, a depression to call it what it is. There is a very heavy cloud of bitterness, rage, and anger in my home that has a negative effect on me. Mostly because I know it doesn't have to be that way. I don't understand hatred, bitterness, and hostility though I've lived around it for years. Very few people are aware of it, maybe the kids and one or two others. But for the most part, it's a "family secret."

My prayer now is to stand firm in the faith, with the full armor on so that this negativity doesn't invade me and to pray that this invasion will be overcome by the power and love of God. I trust the Lord to take care of it in His way and in His time. He will take care of me.

HERE'S HOW IT WORKS

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN AROUND A HAIRSTYLIST AND FELT A BIT UNCOMFORTABLE BECAUSE YOU WERE HAVING A BAD HAIR DAY AND JUST KNEW THE HAIRSTYLIST WAS SCRUTINIZING EVERY ELEMENT OF YOUR MISFORTUNATE STATE?

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ASKED BY A ROOM FULL OF EXECUTIVES AND ATTORNEYS TO TELL YOUR OCCUPATION, WHICH IS A WIDGET PACKER IN A LOCAL MANUFACTURING PLANT?

THESE ARE THINGS THAT GENERALLY BRING ABOUT SELF CONSCIOUSNESS, EMBARASSMENT, AND FEELINGS OF INADEQUACY. THERE ARE MANY MORE SCENARIOS THAT ARE SIMILAR BUT I THINK I GOT MY POINT MADE SO FAR.

THE MAJORITY OF PEOPLE FEEL THESE THINGS WHEN THEY KNOW THEY ARE FACE TO FACE WITH A PSYCHOLOGIST. THERE IS A TENDENCY TO FEEL THAT EVERY WORD SPOKEN AND EVERY MOVEMENT MADE IS ANALYZED, ORGANIZED, AND SOME CONCLUSION DRAWN ABOUT THEIR MENTAL COMPENTANCY.

WELL, HERE IS A LITTLE REALIZED BIT OF NEWS. THE PSYCHOLOGIST HAS BEEN IN VIRTUALLY ALL SCENARIOS THAT HAVE MADE HER FEEL SELF CONSCIOUS, EMBARASSED, AND INADEQUATE. WE SPEND OUR DAYS LISTENING TO THE LIVES, WOES, AND ILLS OF PEOPLE AND THE THINGS THAT ARE ON THEIR MINDS. BUT WHEN AND TO WHOM DOES THE PSYCHOLOGIST GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO DO THAT. WE ARE HUMANS WITH EVERYDAY LIVES, THOUGHTS, AND FEELINGS.

WELL THAT'S WHAT THIS BLOG SITE WILL BE ABOUT. THIS SHRINK JUST SHARING WHAT'S ON HER MIND, HER FEELINGS, HER OPINIONS, HER LIKES, HER DISLIKES, HER OBSERVATIONS, AND HER WISDOM (SUCH AS IT IS).

SO IF YOU'VE EVER WONDERED (OR NOT) WHAT IS ON THE MIND OF A SHRINK, HERE IS YOUR OPPORTUNITY TO FIND OUT.